You Know I Want You...
Yet again, it's been far too long since I've written. There's a reason that happens that I haven't really spoken about. Writing is the catharsis that I need to express a part of who I am that I'm still learning to bring up in real life. Putting these things on the internet gives me a (perhaps false) sense of separation that lets me be vulnerable with something that rarely sees the light of day otherwise. So if I'm not writing once in a while, I'm drowning. In trauma. Medical, Sexual, Developmental. And there's a part of me that things I deserve that keeps me from reaching out. And I get to a point where the crushing weight of what I'm trying to overcome to get to zero or baseline relative to everyone else becomes too much to bear and I have outbursts. And then I end up here. I've been thinking a lot about the music I listen to and why I listen to it. And tonight, a string of songs had a similar theme, but theater kid that I am, ...